Tuesday, July 20, 2021

Hand Position, Heart Position

 











 

It doesn't just happen.

I grew up in a home with a mom who was a professional violinist.  I woke in the mornings not to an alarm clock, but to repeated intervals, resonating from the living room below.  Many times in the middle of the night, I could hear mom practicing in the bathroom with the vent fan on, in an attempt to muffle the sound.  We came home from school, walking through the front door, mostly unnoticed, because she was still at it, not just playing music, but practicing every note and every passage, even those she had played and performed innumerable times before.  

She did not just know the notes or memorize them.  Indeed, by that time, my three brothers and I were also able to call to mind the complexities of the melody and the rhythmically ordered results.  It was like a scratched record playing the same few measures, over and over again. Even now, so many decades later, when I hear a particular piece of music, I remember those notes coming up through the floorboards.

"Have you not practiced that enough already?" we would ask her.  I realize now, absolutely not.  "It is a mistake to think that the practice of my art has become easy to me," wrote Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart.  Even Mozart practiced.  That should tell us a lot.

But mom did not see it as practicing.  She was engraving not just the notes, but the syntax into her brain and fingers and heart that she would be able to repeat on command the very life, beauty, sense and glory to those black notes on the page.  The mechanical repetition of notes perfectly played does not move the soul, but immersing in the unfathomable depths of music. 

Even legendary musicians know, no matter how extraordinarily talented they may be, that a goldmine of practice goes into what they do.  Influential musician and remarkable jazz trumpeter Louis Armstrong once noted, "If I don't practice for a day, I know it.  If I don't practice for two days, the critics know it.  If I don't practice for three days, the public knows it."

Practice changes us.

The other day, I listened and watched my grandson practice his piano lesson.  Over and over he played the notes, readjusting his hand position, stumbling a bit in parts, rushing through the familiar as a ten year old is apt to do.  He was perhaps reluctantly going over the lesson, but practicing nonetheless.  He could have thought about what he needed to do for his next lesson, he could have worried about it, or made excuses, or even panicked, but we learn to do the work by doing the work.

We are not all musicians, but we are all practicing something.  It just matters what.  We choose daily --even momentarily-- what skills, endurance and character we are working on.  Or not working on.

Practice predicts how we respond and what we do.  Not just with our hands, but with our hearts.  We approach people, situations, difficulties, the catastrophic and the ordinary differently because we have practiced.  What kind of person do I want to be?

 

Whatever is true,

whatever is honorable,

whatever is just,

whatever is pure, 

whatever is lovely,

whatever is commendable,

if there is any excellence,

if there is anything worthy of praise,

         think about these things.

What you have learned

and received 

and heard

and seen in me --

practice these things,

and the God of peace will be with you.

               Philippians 4. 8-9

Monday, July 12, 2021

And Then What Appears

 











 

I was hiking with my sister-in-law Amy this past weekend, uncovering some trails that were unknown to her but so familiar to me that those footpaths were engraved in my mind's eye with their turns, ascents, and waterfalls around the next bend. 

She had no idea what to expect. 

But any adventure always leads us, stretches us, weathers us, strengthens us to another revealed dimension of God, that which we never realized before.

We never know how much more there might be -- even on familiar terrain.  Even ordinary paths are not limited by the ordinary.  It is not just what we explore along the way, but the discoveries already there which change us.

The things we learn will always be partially incomplete, because "yet" always looms, not just in the next, but in the now.  Always more.  Always something more.  Creation has a way of showing us that.

Amy and I had a few minutes before we had to return to the car at the trailhead.  I whispered, "Follow me.  You have to see this."  And we took a trail that doesn't appear on any trail map, just a narrow footpath wandering into the forest, flanked by flowering rhododendrons, ducking under a fallen tree, and climbing over another that blocked the way.

And then what came into view was an unexpected bridge.  I knew what was coming.  But it is still a delight to me, this narrow cable bridge long forgotten in an unimaginable spot, providing an unexpected way to continue over the thunderous waters.

And it is always a visual reminder to me.  There is never a "dead end" path but that some kind of bridge suddenly appears in the deep dark forest to take us farther.  Or suddenly His courage seeps into our hearts to navigate us across the mossy rocks and rushing waters.  Or suddenly we realize His strength to stay where we are needed, or even to return a little different, a little stronger than when we started out.

Countless times in my life when I was unsure and afraid, God provided a narrow cable bridge out of the blue, which I didn't see coming and sometimes did not understand in the moment.  Not necessarily another direction, but another provision, sometimes a protection.  I am not so lost or stuck as I often initially imagine, until I bring it before the Lord.  Nothing, but nothing, that God does not redeem.

In Wendell Berry's collection of short stories Watch With Me (1994), an odd assortment of characters are wandering through the countryside, not knowing where they are, nor where they are going.

 

Tom Hardy said.  “Do you know where we are?”

“I know within three or four miles, I reckon,” Tol said.

“Do you know, Burley?”

“Right here,” Burley said.

 

I may not know what I am doing here.  And hardly what is next, even five minutes from now.  But indeed, we are right here.  What are we going to do with that?  Am I willing to trust God in the now and in the next?  God provides.  God redeems.  And then what appears in the mysterious and difficult?

The bridge of His faithfulness. 

 

Your way was through the sea,

Your path through the great waters,

yet Your footprints were unseen.

                      Psalm 77. 19

 

God provides the unexpected bridges to get us there.

Trusting not just in what appears,

or in what I am going through,

or by how He provides in surprising ways,

       but trusting Him.

 

 

Wednesday, July 7, 2021

Dimensions of the Unexpected

We get so caught up in the high wires of being practical, wasting no time, stretching it out, and filling in every little gap, that we are too often unaware of the profound.

On our way home the other day, I suggested that instead of our usual route with stoplights through town, we should take the little two-lane road over the mountain.  It is a tad longer in time and distance, weaving its way towards the same highway, but it is less traveled, not so practical, and provides a different pattern for an ordinary journey.

We were running a little bit later than we had anticipated, and I could tell that sunset was nearing.  As we ascended the winding road, I could begin to see the glow as we drew closer to the ridge.

I didn't have to ask my husband to pull over on the shoulder.  The light was golden, even before we could see it.

And the awe of God was spelled out before us.










 

 

You make the going out of the morning and the evening

         to shout for joy.

                       Psalm 65. 8

Every day, 

God gives us the sunrise and sunset,

the bookends of His glory everyday,

        to remind us of Who He is.

The awe that moves us beyond words

     is a call to worship,

not just for the beauty of the creation,

       but the beauty of the Creator.

What we can see,

what we cannot see,

what we only believe,

what we can know,

                     Himself.

God enlarges our view in unexpected places and in unlikely ways on the most ordinary days.  I shudder to think how much we actually miss of His Presence around us. 

We were looking for a way through to the other side.  God gave us what we did not even ask for along the way.  God brings His beauty to it.  Because even His splendor is a vital element of the essential.

And a reminder of His faithfulness.


Friday, July 2, 2021

What We See and What We Don't

As in many families, the conversation around the supper table revolves around what took place that day.  In one of our daughters' homes, the six members of her family add another dimension to it.  The big question is not just "what happened today?"  But they include three questions to stimulate both thought and conversation.

What was good today?

What was hard today?

Where did I see God's hand today?

The stories they share don't just help them know each other better, their struggles and their joys, but help each one of them know God and His faithfulness a little more.  Because how we see God changes how we see each other, how we see other people, how we see ourselves, and how we see circumstances.  Nothing is random.  Nothing is beyond His care.

As often happens, all three answers turn out to be wrapped up into one situation or story.  What was good is often the victory in what was hard and how God's hand was revealed in the outcome.  At other times, three (or more) very separate incidents converge into one answer.  God opens my eyes to what I've never seen before.  And when I can't quite see the purpose, God's timing is not my own, my heart is not ready, nor the outcome ripe yet.

As my grandmother used to tell me as a little girl:  "Sometimes, darling, you just need to trust God in that."

Whether around the supper table or just musing in bed at night, these questions help us so that our days don't just slip by without noticing what God is doing in our lives and in His Kingdom.  This liturgy of sorts helps us to examine:  what I did, how I responded (or should have responded another way), how I trusted God (or how I didn't), what was my attitude, what was my heart in this, and how did I approach a difficulty or volatile situation differently because I am a believer?

One of the strengths of fellowship is the sharing of stories.  And we don't share our stories nearly enough. God has given each one of us a narrative to come alongside others to encourage them.  

Am I sharing with others the story God is unfolding in my life?  Am I pointing others to Him?

 

After greeting them, he related

        one by one

the things that God had done

among the Gentiles through his ministry.

And when they heard it,

they glorified God.

                    Acts 21. 19-20

Thursday, July 1, 2021

A Pocket of Time

A couple of our grandkids are staying with us this week.  After a morning of hiking and a tailgate lunch at the trailhead yesterday, a  pocket of time in the afternoon lay ahead of the kids and me.  My husband had a business meeting for an hour or so.

It is so easy when those pockets of time appear to fill them with the ordinary, indeed to just fill up the time.  Or we can seek to do something a little differently -- or approach that time with a different heart, a new attitude, a new direction for the commonplace.

I feel like through this past year, too often, I just filled up time instead of taking advantage of it.  Filling or fulfilling is not just in our power to do, but in our attitude toward it.

I was going to take the kids to a local playground for an hour, which I knew they would enjoy.  Or I could take the moment for something a little different.  We packed up the car with some old towels, plastic tubs, and an old colander, and went down to a branch of a little river near us.  The kids played in the cool water, walking among the slippery rocks, scooping up minnows, and exploring the river bank.  

We did not just spend an hour there, but invested a memory.

In almost every day, whether an hour or just a few minutes, God places a pocket of time before us.  Will we let it get nibbled away?  Or let Him guide us into it?

Am I so wrapped up in the ordinary, that I don't see the extraordinary?

Sing to the LORD

    a new song...

          Psalm 149. 1